I jump down, and i have a surge of courage and off i jump.

Seriously, when i was on the platform, looking down i feel a thrill down my spine.
But i still have the courage to jump.
The moment, yes the very moment i drop and off the platform..... i was petrified.
i can't tell you how scare i m.

'gosh why am i torturing myself '

the adrenaline rush was superb. from the first moment i drop i couldn't scream
i was too scare to even scream. buildings and scenic night turn into a nightmare.
but with no regret and i open my eyes.
wind gushing and hitting my face.
tears start to flow and my tear gland start to work.
i dont feel like crying but the gravity and everything just make me cry.

then, i start to scream. at the top of my voice!
scream till i have no more voice, no more breath and i feel a numbness in my brain.
i stop.

the wait of getting to the safe ground was long. perharps using gravitational formula.
the whole hanging jump last for like 24sec.
233m divide 9.81m/s = 24sec.

if you ever ask me do i regret jumping, i will proudly shout NO.
if you ever ask me whether i will jump again, i will say NO [for the time being]
till i find back my courage.
after the jump i suffer from swollen eyes, bloodshot eyes and burst vessel.
oh my. oh my.

now im a coward xt!

and now back at home having 8days mc.
crap. disrupt bne disrupt my cgk. hopefully it dont disrupt my man.

Silent 30sec, and let's think.

IF everyone be a little bit more responsible, the world will get better

Seriously what the hell is what i so gonna to say that to you!!
Wake up the idea and i dont take last min thingy.
Jolly well do it to other people and get lost away from me.
I truly appreciate and thank but no thank!

manicure and pedicure with qifang. catching up session with her and so happy to see that she is still so jumpy.
short catch up with yingwen and alvin chia in which we happen to bump into em so coincidentally at JP.
meeting up with ting ting best and jon at orchard ion. i lost my way initially[ that bad for a singaporean]. today was a very forgetful day for me. zzz perharps waking up too late, rushing through everything is not a good thing.

facial after that and now red so red.
that all folks, till then i gonna blog...?

friends, i know you guys gonna kill me if you see this.
but seriously im too lazy to reply tags.
once it accumulate, i will just blog and ...............
pardon me plzzzzzz =]

hard disk crash.
my whole hella pictures crash w it.
revival done and the pictures were all around.
brain hurting and concentration level decrease while rearranging them into the respective folders.
i dont like coffee but i like the feel of the adrenaline rush.
ironic it can be, that why life is sometimes ironic and human mentality are very complex.
that all folks,

how do you feel when you never catch a wink after more than 24hours from work and yet a swimming session was follow next.
i feel happy to swim, i feel slpy in the pool.
I glide i pull under the water and my eyes were dropping down.
Nevertheless i completed at least 16laps in 30min.
I know it is not fantastic result but i feel semi-refresh and happy to work my body out.
Especially under the hot sun when me and huiting were happily applying Sun block of SPF 50!
it has been ages since i touch sun block when i go swimming.
Say hi to sun block, say bye to banana boat sun tanning oil.
Thank huiting to acc me to swim. yah-ness to us.

touch down in the morning today, upon reaching the edge of my door step, i whine.
WOW heng lei, chao lei! lei si wo!
WOW very tired, super tired, drained! [in eng]

perharps i haven't been sleeping enough, perharps.. ..
i hate lazy bum, why must we cover ya job when you get a higher pay?
maybe we are not as experience but we don on the same organisation uniform.
we have to work smart, but lazy bum is not under the work smart defination yo!
wake up the idea and start stretching out the jaded hands of yours [in the illusion] and do something,
perharps like answering the call lights, patrol around. as simple as that.
im not being demanding, am i? hahahhahahahahahahhahahahaha


never look back, remembering the past make us learn and be stronger

today, i learnt something new from wee seng.

it is a short session but yet i feel something in me seem to understand and mature more.
it is a good feeling and now it all depend on me.

When all the companies in US is collapsing,
US government forked out the money to salvage these companies.

The amount is billion, not million.
Where does all the money come from when it own US companies can't even hold their firm.

Because the government is printing more US dollar.

But when printing more currency it won't help the economy, it will depreciate the value of it own currency. Example, ruppiah value is small because Indonesia's government printed too much of their currency. Too much of it circulating in the market.

But this hard fact don't apply on US market.

Why?

Because US is the world biggest economy, if it collapse it will trigger the button and leading to major depression. Nobody wanted it to happen. So they will support US no matter what.

Even when the export is lower than the import, US still survive. No countries or no one want US to collapse. Cause US is indispensable? Maybe. But many countries are emerging and catching up. China, yes Mainland China.

The future we shall see =]

I just ate Diao Xiao Er with TQZ laodi!
and polluting my mind!! -.- haa

Labels: Contemplation moods

Lost

I can get lost in a city but i don't want to be lost in my life.

too many things, too little time.
i will love to be a super woman with tonns of energy and million, perharps zillion of time for me to use. i have many thing to accomplish in year 2009!

a crazy randomic entry. gosh. -.-

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVblWq3tDwY&feature=related

this link is so funny, intro by sha